Societies Failure
Why shouldn’t society be held accountable for my actions? As it is the beast that dictates my decorum. From a young age we are told to be one thing and then another. And failing that we are admonished because we did not live up to the eyes of our fellow’s views. Something is abhorrently wrong with this ideal. From everything that is todays point of view we should be the young sub-urban knight with the 2.4 children, a family dog and the white picket fence on 1.8 acres of land. The very idea of that pisses me off. Who are you to tell me what I should be and how I should live my damn life.
To hell with your views. The weak are there to be trampled on and to excel my life. If you are to weak to fight then you do not deserve the dream that is yours. Now granted this very same point of view could be turned against me, and many have tried. Though I don’t think anyone has truly understood the fact that I feel if someone has the ability to run me over or rather ‘pull the wool over my eyes’ the I deserve whatever happens to me. If I can not defend say for instance a position within a company because someone beat me out of it then dammit they deserved that position more then I. Does not mean that I won’t feel upset by the fact that my inadequacies were so pointedly placed before me. No one likes to feel as though they are not adequate enough for something. I just happen to measure myself against those that are better then me and I know it. I hold myself accountable to a higher standard in the work force. My own life is chaotic but at work I am able to focus my ambition, my drive and my many talents towards that environment.
My entire life people have told me that I have the talent of leadership. That everyone flocks to me whether I would want them to or not. So why shouldn’t I use that natural charisma to my benefit? Manipulate the situation at hand to see that the outcome is one that I would like. Well that is where society steps in and tells me.. No that is wrong! You can’t step on the single mother of four to get that job because she needs to feed her family! All I have to say to that is this; if she had been able to get off her back from the bed and done her duty of feeding the first of her brood she wouldn’t be in the predicament that she is in now. She is at fault herself for her predilection towards breeding. Because I am able to focus myself on work should I be held back to help this single mother? Should I suffer the bleeding heart of society and say… “Oh yes! I’m sorry please take the food, clothing and shelter from me so you can continue to pollute the world with your wasteful progeny!” This is just one aspect of many that I hold Society accountable for. They will tell me that I am wrong for doing this. That we should help the weak… We are being held back by the weak! Cull the weak is what I say. Either force them to be productive members of our Society who will in some way benefit us, or allow them to fall to the wayside and do not waste our dwindling resources on them.
Of course the above statement is in direct opposition to what I am right at this moment doing. I am asking for help from the state to get me through this mental illness that I suffer from. Many would argue that I am acting hypocritically. Speaking out the side of my mouth as it were. No! I am not. I am using the state to further myself, eventually I will become a productive member of this society. I will turn myself into something that will help (now I won’t lie here) mostly myself. Though as a byproduct of my helping myself other’s will be helped as well. Though we only have ourselves to look at. It is the old adage of “You look into the mirror in the morning, and do you like the reflection that stares back at you?”.
Something is wrong with today’s world when we have to lie to ourselves and delude ourselves with beliefs that we are actually helping these people. We aren’t, we are facilitating the continuation of their demise. Because without them actually seeing that they are failing they will do nothing but take, take and continue taking. They do not know any better. Much like myself. I didn’t know that was what I was doing. Am I taking steps to correct and remove that ‘trait’ from myself. Yes. Will it be successful? I am not the one to say. Of course I will be judged by society for my actions, and eventually be found either wanting or I shall be entirely successful. There is not an in between for me. I will either utterly fail and find myself locked away from society to protect themselves from me and my ‘poisoned’ point of view, or I will be a success in such a way that I will bring to society a new idea of the way things should be done. That we have been living a lie and I will not shelter those who are with me from it.
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